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I was just thinking how things keep going even when you are not thinking about them or don't see them for a while. Like "my friends" They continued their lives and found new friends and houses and boy friends and girlfriends and jobs and they do things. They just dont sit there in a closet waiting for me to take them out and dust them off so i can play with them again. It is a weird feeling. I have been in the same general location for the past 15 years. But "my friends" they had left and never returned. Some have started families, some have started careers, some have crushed hearts and some have run away. I on the other had have been here. I studied here I worked here I fell in love here. I am not saying its wrong to get away its just that in my head everyone is right where they are supposed to be but when i hear that "my friends" did this and went there and fell in love and fell out of love and accomplkised this and failed at that I feel... well left out. Where is the ring to the dear old friend when you found that new boy toy or the text when you got to miami or the email describing the new job. I forget they are human with moving parts and ticking brains. Its not about me it was about us. So I will try to KIT as much as they will allow me to I will say happy birthday, cause I remember dates, and I will say happy mothers day, and I will wish many merry christmases and I will ask nothing in return. Just don't ask me whats new cause... Iv'e been here 15 years and you could have seen it first hand. This whole thing is such a touchy subject for me whether or not I should still refer to them as My friends. I officially have One Girlfriends and One friend, she has been there even when she moved to NC to try out college, even when she stopped college cause she got pregnant, even when she had the baby, I remember receiving that text, even when she moved from apt to apt even when she had the get togethers but most importantly she was there when I wanted her to be there....................................................................................... Just me ranting blurting out thoughts.