I'm oficially losing it. I can't think straight any more. I don't know whats going on or why I am doing this. I am losing focus. My social awkwardness is getting the best of me and I can't stand it. where is everyone I have ever cared for? GONE! The ones left, the ones I truly love. My nerves are shaking and I cant make them stop. Do this do that its just so pointless really. what have we done and for whom have we done it. This City needs a lot more than what we can offer and you are telling me that we can change it little by little. It just doesnt work that way. Compare it to hoboaken, jersey city, patterson or trenton but tis still CMD the one and only ghetto left in south jersey. where the whores seem to have longer hours and day shifts. where the drug dealers need not hide their contraband where the politicians dont give a fuck. this seems to matter to me and I can no longer see why. Ive given this city 15 years and what has it given me. CLC and a BA. Thank you CMD and good night, good luck to you I know its not your fault but these resident who have abandoned you point fingers outward and never towards themselves. Change comes from with in and I am feeling it but Im not sure I like it.