Rambling man lives on as this has just become an outlet of greivences and a ventilation for profanity and curses. Mainly hating what I see in me and wanting it all to go away. When all this is done when the dust has cleared what will I be left with. It seems my allies have become my enemies or worse yet my disciplinarians and I can't do much about it when I have cried wolf many times before and the moral of the tale still stays true.